Yesterday was another good day. Whenever I walked past a picture of Andrew, I smiled.
The feeling that accompanied the smile was one of complicity. That of the two of us knowing something that others may not. A felt awareness of life’s eternity.
Not that I didn’t have moments of sadness, it takes time to become accustomed to continue a relationship when one of you lives in a different dimension.
There was a time, and not all that long ago, when having a telephone was the envy of one’s neighbors. A phone call was made only if dictated by necessity.
Not having a legitimate reason to call, I remember that when my grandmother got a telephone installed (she was the only one in the street) my friends and I would dial random numbers, make prank calls and laugh our heads off. It never occurred to us to call a friend – if they too had a telephone – or a relative for that matter. Of course not, we’d grown up talking to people we knew, face to face. It would feel awkward to speak to the friend that you sat next to at school on the phone, when you could talk to her in school the following day.
I think that all of the above is a stream of consciousness aimed at helping me articulate the idea, or the fact, that as over time we learned to communicate by telephone, over time we can and will learn to communicate by means other than verbal.
Presence within oneself, awareness of oneself, a quiet and observing mind are all the tools that one needs.
They cannot be bought, they need to be developed. Yoga and meditation practices are the best way of developing those skills.
Now, please, the next time I slip off the wagon and have a hard time smiling like an idiot at my son’s pictures, please be kind and don’t have a go at me saying things like:
“Pardon me for saying, but aren’t you the one that preached about blah, blah, whatever, whatever….?”
As I said, it takes time and practice.
Another reason why I had a good day yesterday, is that…. Oh but you know don’t know about it yet do you?…alright: I am going to Washington on Sunday, March 7 to Tuesday March 9, to a suicide prevention conference, organized by the policy institute of the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.
At the end of the conference we will meet with our respective legislators. I will lead the NY delegation when we meet with Senators Schumers and Gillibrand and our Representative, Congresswoman Nita Lowey.
It has taken a while, but finally yesterday all the appointments were confirmed. The staff at Nita Lowey’s office couldn’t have been kinder and more helpful. As the appointment with the Congresswoman is quite close to that with Senator Schumer, they offered to escort us to the Senate building via… I think they said tunnels? Anyway, some kind of shortcut. They also offered us a tour of The Capitol. I am deeply touched and I want to say a big thank you for their thoughtfulness.
When I am there, I intend putting forward the idea of Yoga and Meditation as part of our children education, over time, as we grow into a nation of meditators, there likely won’t be much need for a huge allopathic health system.
The only thing is that I haven’t quite worked out how to even broach the subject.
Still, I am sure that I’ll work it out once I am there, in the meantime time, I need to get ready for my yoga class this morning.
See you tomorrow.