IF YOU ARE FEELING SUICIDAL OR NEED TO TALK CALL THE NATIONAL LIFELINE
I wanted to tell you that working on Bruno the manuscript, again, has brought me joy and given me something to look forward to each day. It has given me another precious tool to support me on this journey through fire.
I can’t say that I know precisely how things work up there where our boys are, but I believe that your son and my son had a hand in getting me to work on the book again.
As much as I despair over Andrew not being right here with us, deep down I know that we haven’t lost him.
I know and feel that Andrew, and Bruno, Kerry, Michael, Jono, Max, Cameron… all our children are with us, even more now than when they inhabited a body.
Having said that, had I a choice in the matter, I would erase what happened, and wake up again to a normal day on November 3rd, 2009.
Espresso would be brewing, Robert would awake to gentle whispers, I would shower, get dressed, I would do a bit of this and a bit of that. I would call Andrew and Florentina at some point during the day, I would think about Thanksgiving and Christmas not too far away….
Yes, I would choose that. And yet, I have to acknowledge the many gifts of love and life of a depth difficult to imagine by the “uninitiated,” that have been showered upon me, from up above where my son now dwells. And I guess the same is the case for my fellow survivors.
Until we meet again.