The day after tomorrow is the day of the Fair.
Rayo from Hawaii emailed me on her way to the airport yesterday, ” I am on my way,” she wrote. “See you on Friday.”
It gave me butterflies in my stomach, I have been imagining her on her flight to us, wondering what she might be thinking and feeling.
Debra also left yesterday, I think she might have just arrived this morning. Susan is flying in today and Melissa from DC is driving to New York tomorrow.
And I am in bed, as sick as a dog. I have a fever, my chest is heavy, my head is heady or something.
However, by hook or by crook come tomorrow afternoon, I am making my way to Washington Square Park to meet my precious friends, fellow suicide survivors (except for Debra) and amazing supporters.
We want to meet before the Fair starts, we need to hug each other, we need to understand…
I have also asked NYU to allow me and few friends to visit to Bobst, so that together we can pray where Andrew died.
With all the suicides that have taken place at Bobst, I don’t believe that they have ever closed the library and conducted some kind of multi-denominational service. Not only to pray and reflect on the tragedy of the lost lives, but also to clear the space of the energy of death.
After removing the body of a suicide victim, business CANNOT & SHOULD NOT go on as usual as they did when Andrew died, when the library reopened as if nothing had happened. They even conducted tours and NYU student ambassadors were instructed not to disclose what had happened earlier that morning, unless specifically asked. What can one say about that?!
I had originally asked to go to Bobst at 5:30 pm. tomorrow, but then NYU suggested that the morning would better. Unfortunately the morning is difficult for me because I don’t live in Manhattan and going in the morning would mean driving in twice in a day.
Anyway, I am hoping to be given the okay to visit the library on Saturday morning before the Fair starts.
I’ll let you know how things develop, in the meantime I am going to stay in bed, drink lots of fluids and so on.